I hope all the teachers discussed with the district if this was worthwhile. I personally wouldn’t spend my money of this stuff. I love attending workshops–but not ones that are like this. Ideally, the district would try to find a presenter that not only brings a topic to the community–but a presenter that also manages to design a lesson that invigorates the love for teaching and the joy of learning.
I’ve been scouring the internet and my books to find an idea that will help me teaching. Then I found this blog called Pursuing Context. It is a blog run by a teacher who had been burned out of his job after two years and is currently on recovery. His post on when he quit his job was the second search result I got when I typed “quit teaching” in my Google search box.
In a more recent post, he wrote..
You need a through-line. You need something that transcends the microscopic view of a rough day or bad week. Teaching isn’t really about imparting knowledge. Teaching is about building better people.
I have to keep that in mind. My students will be better people because of me. I’ve already stopped worrying. No more complaining.
I heard this the other day and it keeps on playing in my head. I finally watched the video and it is a kid who says “lalalala”. Feeling a bit conflicted because I lecture so much to kids. But then I can’t get it out of my head. As usual, I have the chorus stuck in my head.
Today Yesterday was a pretty miserable day. After my BTSA meeting, I went home and slept since my head was hurting. Then I woke up and read some articles about boredom in the classroom. There are a couple of interesting articles and posts up there.
In conclusion? Kids need to focus and I have to expect less out of them. I’m no eternal optimist. I’m better off being a defensive pessimist for my own sanity.
I’ll try again today.
Before I run off to work, I just wanted to update on some things…
I have my summer plan set! I’m not doing as much as I have done in previous summers, but I am on track to attend the bow re-hairing workshop in New Hampshire and I’ll be working on Level 2 certification at Hidden Valley. :) Super excited!
Today is day one of green smoothie detox. I’ve been sleeping a lot in the afternoon and I’m hoping my new diet will help me keep up the energy. I know drinking a cup of Peets will probably keep me going–but I want to try a non-caffeinated way since I couldn’t sleep last time. I’ll update again when I get home if I “passed” this first day. I don’t know if I have the discipline for it–but then we shall see!
I haven’t been practicing viol or cello the last couple of days. I better practice at least an hour on each instrument when I get home.
I’ve also been thinking about redoing my wardrobe. Get rid of all the old clothes etc. Better stop thinking and start doing. I cleaned two of my old shoes yesterday–so at least that is some progress.
Opps.. 4 minutes past my schedule. Better leave now!
I spoke a little bit too much today. Next time I need to make sure to shut my mouth. Bah.
Right now I’m in Fresno for the CASMEC convention. I was originally planning to ride the Greyhound–but then Kerry offered to be my ride and room mate. So now she’s my convention buddy this time around.
Yesterday we went to one orchestra panel by Stephen Benham. The topic was bow hold development. He went over the physiology of the hand quite a bit and then went on to give some great tips. Specifically, he talked about after using the pencil–you can use a stick and then students graduate to the bow. If they have a tense thumb, make them hold a straw instead of a pencil. Also, he starts with up bows rather than down bows and when teaching distance, he makes it into a traveling game (from la, to san diego, to etc.etc.)
Then we went to watch some of the honor orchestras get ready. We also went to watch Homestead High School perform. It sucks because I find myself inspired and jealous at the same time whenever I go watch things like this. I feel hopeful and inspired because one day I may reach the level of excellence these performers display. On the other hand, I feel inadequate and jealous of all these talented people and wish I was on par with them. I just have to remind me that time, effort, and experience will make me better.
Then we ate dinner at the sushi place and met some other educators. This time they had something for me to eat!
Today Now yesterday, I made a new friend. Marylin and I met up with a new graduate cello student named Paul for coffee and dinner. It was a really positive experience since we got to talking about teaching philosophy. It made me feel pretty positive what I’m doing at my schools with my classes. I’m always unsatisfied with how I’m doing with my classes–but speaking with them I’ve realized that I have met my overall philosophy with these kids. What is that? Well, I want the kids to learn how to play something well and learn to have fun playing music with each other.
I still wish I knew how to manage my classroom better though. I think if I clean up my classroom management skills, I’d be a better teacher. I think I’m getting better–but then again, maybe I’m getting worse?
Anyways, tomorrow I’m going to Fresno. :( Maybe I can squeeze in some practice tomorrow morning before I leave.
Não chora, menina, não chora mais
Um dia você vai saber
Na vida existe sempre a razão
E mesmo a tristeza tem valor
O que fez a l·grimas no seu rosto
É o carinho do seu coração
E a menina que sabe o que é o carinho
Vai ser mais linda, linda mulher
Uma estrela aparaceu
Sorrindo pra você, menina
E a menina que sabe o que é o carinho
Vais ser mais linda, linda mulher
My sister took this CD with her to Seattle. I love this track. I should learn it on guitar and sing along with it.
I was practicing today and I don’t like how I sound. I need to get back to practicing. I’m going to try waking up at 3AM again to practice.
I have a viol and cello lesson today. I’m not prepared–but I gotta keep on going to keep myself on track.
Actually, if I want to go to graduate school in a couple of years. I should probably make sure that I put in at least 4 hours per day. Maybe cello practice can be from 3-5AM and 6-8PM? And just cram in 30 minutes of viol, violin, and piano.